rehab

As I sit here, enduring my 6th feeding of the day, it's very hard for me to believe that in 24 hours I will be in a completely different place. For two and a half months I've been fed properly, therapized, and said the words "I feel" so many fucking times I'm about to eliminate it from my vocabulary.  Read More »

For as long as I've been at the HG, I've tried to avoid one thing (other than food):

Going to the bathroom at the same time as my therapist.  Read More »

It's really aggravating when someone just sits there, clearly irritated, and says nothing about it. Maybe that happens a lot in the real world, but here at the HG, I'm so used to processing my damn feelings that if someone is clearly hiding something, it bothers me.  Read More »

So I kind of accidentally spent a rent's worth of money on a new wardrobe today.

Oops.

But seeing as my mind can rationalize anything, I thought of this:

Having an eating disorder makes you not want to wear form fitting clothes or look in mirrors.

Part of the healing process is WEARING form fitting clothes and LOOKING in mirrors.  Read More »

Disclaimer:
I was cut off from the world (i.e., the internet) for 2 days, so this is an overdue entry.
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As of today (and yesterday, so at least this has been a constant for 2 days) my “discharge date” is next Saturday. This is because….

…I HAVE SOMEWHERE TO LIVE!!  Read More »

I have plenty of experience when it comes to substance abuse. My father was in prison from the time I was in diapers until I was 18 due to consequences of his addiction. My mother did her best, but was lonely and remarried when I was 10 to another addict. At first he just drank a little, then a lot, then went to drugs.  Read More »

I swear to God I'm going to be at HG FOREVER.

Today was supposed to be my last day. During "ATTITUDE FOR GRATITUDE!" time during breakfast, people even said "I'm grateful for Angie....etc. etc." which, is obviously true, but no one would say that unless said person was leaving.  Read More »

So, first off, I MUST thank everyone for all the birthday wishes I received yesterday. I admit, I was very worried about my birthday. I LOVE this day and the thought of not enjoying it was just too much to handle.  Read More »