happiness

Today I'd like to share with you a Buddhist story.

It's kind of funny how it is said that the strongest relationships result from two independent people...

How it takes being able to stand on your own two feet to be able to be happy with someone, and when two people are together not because they need eachother but because being with one another makes them happy, the relationship will be better.

TheMumblingYears (9:39:57 PM): i mean with you and jada, have you started talking?
icmycorpse (9:40:09 PM): not really
TheMumblingYears (9:40:28 PM): i'm sorry :[
icmycorpse (9:40:36 PM): oh well
icmycorpse (9:41:28 PM): i have done what i can she jus simply doesnt love me anymore and i can tell so there jus isnt anything left for me to do
TheMumblingYears (9:42:08 PM): :[

I can feel all the walls closing in around me. It takes me forever to get to sleep at night and once I finally do get to sleep, in the wee hours of the morning, I never want to wake up. I sleep though the entire morning and well into the afternoon, awaken constantly by the ringing phone. Damn creditors.

I have a question that has been plaguing me.

Why are you going to college? Is it so that you can get a good career?

I've been looking around myself at my fellow college students and I can't help but wonder why they're here. Are they honestly motivated by a need for a career? Are they truly in pursuit of a reality that consists of repetition and ritual?

It is truly amazing to see how people change over the years. You think you know someone and then all of a sudden you are looking at the person wondering why you ever hung out with them or cared for them in the first place. Sometimes we build up so many exspectations for the people we once cared about, that we find those people are unable to live up to what or who we thought they were.

While visiting graduate schools this past month, trying to find the perfect fit, I spent my time in the airports, buses and subways reading "Into the Wild" by Jon Krakauer. I was told by several friends close to me that the movie was amazing and that the young Chris McCandless (the stories protagonist) was a bold, and awe-invoking character.

What is it that makes people happy? Is it something that can be bought or sold? The drug pushers and the advertisers would tell you a resounding yes. I on the other hand, firmly believe in the contrary.