I know that most people will read the title and wonder how on Earth does this person have life any rougher than anyone else. What I really am saying that no one on this planet would want to walk in my shoes, not even for two seconds. Right now you are are wondering why my life would be so bad. Let me start out saying I lost my one and only beloved daughter last Sept 5th, and the one year mark is coming up quickly, not sure how I will do on that day. My baby girl ws funny, kind, sweet and beautiful both inside and out, just to name a few of her good traits. The person who took her away is still walking free, not fair to me or her, or her two year old brother, who misses her greatly. The one thing I must tell you is that she was 25, I know I spread my kids out in age, but I believe it was to be that way, because with out him I most certainly would have done something aweful to the jackass who took my baby away. Let me just say this he reminds me if Drew Peterson, or that other Peterson dude that killed his wife because she was an inconvenience. I have never in my life met someone so heartless and unkind. Here are just a few things he did, every day my daughter was in the ICU he tried to have me arrested for what I have no clue. I was was watching over my baby girl. He lied to the sheriffs dept and had them try to break into her house. He tried to sue my mother and took her to court over $2,800, worth of my daughters belongings, stating that he bought everything and it was all worth $35,000, he is crazy, then my mother had nine live Christmas trees disgarded in her drive way. This is only the tip of the iceberg that this looney toon of a human has done. Now I am writting letters to get any one, the district attorney, any law enforcement, even the governor to pay attention to me and arrest the jackass, and put him behind bars for a long time.
However there is much more to my life besides this, not only am I a mother of a two year old but I am a single mother of a two year old. I am not sure if this is by choice or just bad choice of who I married. He my soon too be ex-husband has always had issues, but I am the type of person who always gives people the benefit of the doubt. My big mistake, however I would not have my gorgeous little boy other wise. Because of my ex's alcohol and drug abuse, I put him on a bus and sent him to GA, to be with is mom. Then a few months after that I filed for divorce, he however keeps crying the blues on how he wants to come back, no way punk. I am not taking care of a 46 year old that acts like he is two. For the first time I think I am making him stand on his own two feet, something his mother has never done. Then there are his two daughters, which are my son's sisters, one is 16 and pregnant, the other is just hell on wheels, due largely to their mother not wanted to disapline them. Thank goodness they live half an hour away from me.
Then there is the fact that I lost my job in December, so I decided to go back to school, I started at a local college in January. Shortly after that I was offered a part time job at a local bank, but I have to travel between 10 different branches, not my ideal job but it helps pay the bills, I would love to be able to attend school full time instead of part time and not work at all. Then there is the part where I feel guilty about putting my little guy into daycare. I know millions of moms do it but my little dude has been through losing his sister, and his dad going away.
On top of that I have a crazy sister, who lets her husband push her around and bust up her phone, and then she rewards that behavior by buying him a Harley. She has quite a few screws loose if you ask me. She also is very guilty about the way she used to treat my daughter calling her a spoiled brat ect. Now she spends a lot of time cleaning my daughers headstone and weeding her plot. Funny how guilt can eat at you.
My dad is just feeling guilt because he never really spent any time with my daughter, my step mom is slightly absent minded, so I am not quite sure what is going on there. My mom is searching for answers so after many years of not attending any church at all her and my step father have gone back to church. That to me is strange as well.
So in a nutshell, I am a single mother who lost her daughter and is dealing with that horrible lose, who is trying to get someone to pay attention and arrest the jackass who did this, who is dealing with an alcoholic ex who wants to come back home(sorry not happening), his kids(who need locked up), my family(although I love them dearly), a part time job(that drives me crazy), my classes and homework(which exhaust me), household chores(that I hate), and my adorable little boy(what can I say e is awesome!!). I forgot one thing, I am trying to start a foundation in my daughers name to help other young girls. I would like to add that I am not on any type of drugs either legal or otherwise and I don't drink, and most people wonder how I do it all, I really don't know. I am open to suggestions to anyone who would like to give them.
Now that I have told you everything, I need a break, but I promise to keep you updated.
