I knew there were people who would listen, understand and help me through anything I was going through, but I was just struggling and I didn't want to share my difficulties.
Just to give you an idea, I know I’ve been friends with S**la since middle school but I totally ignored and forgot her. You might think I kept in touch with S*fia because we are family but we grew apart during the fall and spring semester, she was too busy with her life and I didn't share any of my thoughts and tough times with her either. She admits and agrees that we didn't know what was and is happening in each others lives, its one of those mysteries that you have to unravel and overcome, so that your friendship still remains strong, except when you become self consumed you forget everything and everyone else.
I’m not a genius (I’ve always thought myself to be an average hard worker), so it was really hard to tell people when everyone in my family and circle of friends thought that life would be easy breezy at Penn for me even with the conditions of traveling 2 hours everyday and not being to stay after class.
I began to hate life and it kind of led me into a very awful depression and I didn't get help from people (except from doing inner soul searching and discussions with others) until my parents were really, really worried. I think I’ve learned that you have to struggle with certain things yourself and experience them to learn and grow to be a stronger person...I don't think I will be staying or studying at Penn. It wasn't a happy place for me, and maybe I didn't give it a chance but I never had the time to give Penn a chance.
Thanks for listening/reading….but I just had a thought...
The idea of self help is nice but if you need help, is the self the right person to give help?
I’m confused.
If no man is an island, than isn’t self help possibly a contradiction?
books people read that turn on a light bulb until they put it back on the shelf and it gets forgotten pretty quickly. I kind of agree that self help is an oxymoron. It's always easier and better when you have people on your side.
"Consistency is not a human trait" - Maude, from Harold and Maude
I have been meaning to reply to you since morning but our internet network is totally screwed, the northeast is experiencing some real winter weather today, it was snowing lightly and raining heavily the night and day so our wires and cables are...you know..scrwewed up and my internet shuts off every two seconds so I just about gave up on it today .
I do think solitude teaches one's self a lot but we can never survive without having something or someone to hold on to even in our solitude and isolation.
"No, not rich. I am a poor man with money, which is not the same thing." - Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Love in the Time of Cholera Fudge "It's the hard-knock life..."