My Senior Year in High School Perspective.

I'm happy to say that I'm finally done with all my college applications and that at the moment I'm just waiting to enroll for Bright Future and FAFSA. :) I can't believe how time is really just passing right under my fingernails. I remember seeing it through the outside perspective of what my ex was going through, as I was a sophomore, but now that I'm going through these experiences, I feel that I can somehow relate more with him as an individual, and I can see why he picked FIU as his first choice, hence, it is also one my first choices as well. As times goes by, I can actually feel all the same things he went through, and how it was really like to be in his shoes...and somehow I can kind of see myself as if I was him, sometimes, and I think that's why I always try to learn from what he did in the past, and I think I do this by taking all the advices he ever gave me back then, when we used to be best friends. I’ve also realized how I’ve somehow used all his old advices and over achieved from them…you can clearly say that I am the person that I am today because of him. He as a person, literally affected me in such a great way, that even thought he might just not never find our or understand, I can’t help but be thankful of ever having him in my life. I sometimes wonder if we will ever be friends ever again but even if that's not the case, I'm just thankful that I was able to learn from all his mistakes and to become the person I am now. ^_^ I feel sometimes that it's like every time I do something, I can always hear his remarks and comments in my head about everything he used to tell me, and when I do listen to those internal remarks, I just laugh because I can now see where he was always coming from with his remarks and comments, in the past-he's really one of the few people I can say I sort of look as a motivation, since I can now understand all the actions he had done in the past, and this helped me in the way that it had showed me how to be a better person...looking back, even though he did do countless of horrible mistakes in our relationship, it didn't change the fact that I was indeed a horrible girlfriend, since I wasn't as understanding about his feelings as I should’ve been in that moment and not to mention that I didn't really understand any of the events he was undergoing in his life at the time…I guess I was just plain selfish at the time and couldn’t comprehend him emotionally at the time, and probably wasn’t much of a help but only in the educational department...so yeah, I guess I never saw past what me wanting him by my side, meant, and how horrible it might have been for since I’ve learned that in every relationship there has to be some kind of balance, so you can say I've learned from that. How? Well, if I had someone right now, who wanted to be with me in all times, I wouldn’t bare to stay in such a relationship, because I can't imagine myself with someone like that...well either way, I can't believe I'm going to be 18 soon, and that I'm going to vote, this year, and that high school is almost over…wow, time flies =) Personal freedom?