WHAT IF? What a Powerful Sentence!

So, I am here watching The Butterfly Effect and something comes to my attention. WHAT IF... my life had gone differently? WHAT IF... my mother's ex boyfriend had not have abused my siblings and I? WHAT IF... My grandmother had never adopted me? WHAT IF... I was raised in a foster home. WHAT IF... my mother was not such a sleazy tea bag. I know right, you are thinking, "What? Sleazy tea bag?" That is just my lingo. Anyways, the question is stuck in my head now. But, you have to think that if you did, not that you you could, go back and change your life then, would it not just make it worse? That is the theme of the movie The Butterfly Effect I believe. When I think about all of the bad things that have happened to me I just can't help thinking about the fact that my life still turned out decent anyways. I think of all the shit that happened in my life and I think that I would not change a day of it. If that was what was meant to happen in order for me to have a decent adult life then I do not want it changed! My dad walking out on me and then getting shot. My mom being a low down sleazy drug attic. If that is what it takes, or should I say took, then I am definatly GLAD that it all happened. I mean, not all of it was a waste. My grandmother is a damn good mother to me. She is, always has been, and always will be! I mean, I know that God has made everything ok and that it will just tend to get better! Anyways, that is just my take on the sentece "WHAT IF?"