Stuck in an Invisible World

For so long i've been caught up in the past. Reminiscing in a nostalgic daze. Looking at photos of last years year book I can't help but wish with all my heart that things could go back to the way they were. Looking at these pictures I feel like an outsider looking in on someone elses life. Things may not have happened all that long ago. A year, maybe. And yet so much has changed.
Approximatley five hundred twenty five thousand, six hundred minutes has past since these photos were taken. I can still remeber the optimisim i would feel waking up in the mornings getting ready for school. Looking at my smile in the picture I can even remeber getting dressed in the morning, picking out the off -white Hollister top, spritzing myself with Bath and Body Works perfume. I can remember the sound of my mothers voice telling me it was time to go, I can remeber the way it felt to hold his hand. I can remeber all of this and it feels like yesterday, maybe even earlier today. But then i remeber it was approximatly three hundred and sixty five days ago, and yet it feels like an eternity has past.
I don't have any of the same friends that I had a year ago, we all fell apart. The person I once thought I would spend the rest of my life with hates me, and I hate him too. Things are so complicated now, and I wish with all my heart that i could go back those three hundred and sixty five days to when nothing seemed to matter but then and there.
I feel lost in an invisible world. Inbetween the world of where i was and the world of where i want to be.