So if you read my last blog, you'd know that the past few months have been really rough. And if you haven't, then... my boyfriend's in the Army and was deployed to Afghanistan about 6 weeks ago. It has been extremely difficult to deal with for so many reasons. I have bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder (but nothing too severe) and take a mood stabilizer, which helps in general. But I had gotten so depressed from this whole ordeal that by last week, I couldn't even do my job. And the depression and anxiety even started affecting me physically like causing my jaw to lock up and be in so much pain that I have trouble eating and horrible headaches. I was biting my nails til they hurt, which was also making my jaw worse and sometimes crying til I was exhausted. I was doing everything I could to deal with how I was feeling, but once it started interfering with my job, I new I needed to get some medicine.
So I found an empty bottle of Celexa that I had from last year and got it refilled and now I'm actually able to function again! Antidepressants usually take a little while to get rid of the depression, but they help my anxiety right away. My jaw feels a lot better, even though it's still locked and i'm biting my nails ALOT less. And I'm able to go to work and do my job without worrying about breaking down.
I know a lot of people are against these kinds of medication, but for me they have been life-changing. And I totally agree that they are very often misused and overused, but when used properly for people that actually need them, they can work wonders. I know some people are opposed to all kinds of medicine, but for those who are willing to take medicine for a cold, but not for anxiety, I don't get it. It's just a different kind of sickness. If you've never experienced true depression or anxiety or any mental illness it's difficult to understand what it's like I guess. It probably does seem kinda made up, but I assure you it's not. For me anyway. I can't speak for everyone who takes medication.
I really don't like the idea of taking an antidepressant so that i can get through the day but after feeling these feelings for so long...so i understand.
i've also noticed how many people do not understand the idea of mental illness because they have never been through anything similar to them. Its very upsetting. I hope eventually people will begin to understand mental illness.
I have noticed that people think that everything is all in your head and say your so messed up and blah blah and it is aggrivating. people don't understand unless they have a disorder of some kind. As for me anti-depressants made me even worse making me more anxious and making me suicidal, which i am not at all. I guess there is really no help besides those. I have generalized anxiety and it really sucks. people think i am making it up, or that it is all in my head.I am glad you are doing better.
The only qaulm I have with them is that for some people it just numbs them up. Yes it stops the sadness but it doesn't allow them to be themselves. While it allowed you functionality, it doesn't allow happiness for someone else. Happiness is relative but my expreince with them is that they have made loved ones numb and feelingless. There are many ways to help depresssion without taking anti-depressents. Solutions that might help cure it in the longrun. Such as nutrition and therapy. I am just making suggestions,
luv, Monica
The only qaulm I have with them is that for some people it just numbs them up. Yes it stops the sadness but it doesn't allow them to be themselves. While it allowed you functionality, it doesn't allow happiness for someone else. Happiness is relative but my expreince with them is that they have made loved ones numb and feelingless. There are many ways to help depresssion without taking anti-depressents. Solutions that might help cure it in the longrun. Such as nutrition and therapy. I am just making suggestions,
luv, Monica
It's tough out there.
yeah, i get what you mean. and i agree there are other things that can help and those things should be done in conjunction w/ taking the medicine. i don't just take the medicine and that's it. but it allows me to think more clearly in order to deal with what's going on and kind of get myself centered.
it's the same as with physical illness. you can take medication, but if you don't change certain habits or your lifestyle, then you're not really gonna solve the underlying problems.