Realizing "Hey it really isn't that bad."

So last night was well I guess you could call it a family tv night.
My oldest little brother stayed the night with his grandparents so none of us (me, stepmom, or dad) had to be constantly keeping up with a very active two year old.
Instead we watched "So You Think You Can Dance?"

It was kind of weird that my dad actuallly wanted to watch that in the first place, but then he even cried. Now my dad isn't a very emotional person and he didn't even use the excuse he had something in his eyes. WOW!

So we are sitting there watching each contestant do their thing. And then this guy with Down Syndrome came on there. So of course he wanted to be a dancer, but most important he wanted to prove that people with disabilities can do normal things to and have talents. I think he did an okay job but of course not good enough to actually become a professional dancer. The judges even let him know that. I don't really know how because I would have felt really bad, but this isn't about me or even weither he made it threw or not.

Okay so he gets done dancing and they are talking to him and at that moment I just happen to look over on the couch at my parents who have my baby brother that has cleft lip on the couch with them.

Then my stepmom looking at my dad says "Why are you crying?"

He responds looking down at my brother "It really isn't that bad."

And that made me think.." Wow! I had already realized this and i thought that had too. "

But my stepmom also added "Yeah and i bet we'll realize it even more tomorrow."

Which also made me think.. She was talking about all the other children we would encounter on our way to and from our hospital trip. Actually before all that was said I wasn't even going to go, but that changed my mind. I wanted to be there to hear everything the doc had to say and i also thought it might help me find my calling in life. But it didn't, but im still glad I went.

We went to his first Dr. apt. this morning and we met a lot of helpful people. His first surgery will probably be in August while I am excited to see what he looks like with a normal lip I already think he is beautiful I just had to get use to seeing it everyday. And I really dread seeing how pitiful he is going to look with restraints on his little bitty baby arms for 3 weeks.

I hate when the people I love are hurting and I can't fix it. But I know I must be here for him and my family. I really feel sorry for people without families.Everyone should stay close to those they love who love you back.