Should i kill myself?

Sometimes we don't notice how we can really hurt a person. Sometimes we get fooled by the fake smile on peoples faces, and inside they are crying out for help. Sometimes we don't take the time and help people out, instead we help them hurt themself even more. Sometimes when we say hi! how are you doing? and the person says fine thanks! We forget to ask them how are you doing? When we sometimes ask that question, we say it in a rush that we don't catch the person saying how their day has been. Sometimes we can be selfish. (please note i said sometimes)

These situations can be prevented.

Suicide: to kill (oneself)

I don't know how many people on here know a person who has commited suicide or someone who has tried, but it's so painful to know someone of either category.

I sometimes wonder what comes to their mind? What do they think about at that point? What do they say to themselfs? What comes over them?

I lost a very very VERY important person in my life. He was like a father to me, he really meant a whole lot. The story is that he was here in Ga working his whole life, helping others with problems. Being the support system and lifting us up. He loved his girlfriend with all his heart.. many people said she wasn't right for him, but he didn't care, that was his everything. He never celebrated his birthday because his parents died on that day and he was basically always alone.. he also had a problem where he couldn't make babys. I meant a lot to him just as much as he meant a lot to me. He saw me as his daughter as well and was always there for me when i mostly needed him. He always did favors for me...and i would always surprise him with balloons and candy and cards to light his day!

One day he decided to leave to Miami, because he was in a fight with his girlfriend. He went back to try to start a new life.. but the sad part is that i didn't get to say goodbye..

He has always been that type of person who never likes to say goodbye because they believe goodbye means forever and he wasn't leaving forever and he also hated to say goodbye.

Now, when he left to Miami, his ex-girlfriend kept calling him back over and over and over again. She had her daughter call him daddy and to come back and live with her mom and they will be a happy family. Her daughter is about 6. This brought life back into his heart, he gathered his things and packed it in his car and left to Atlanta. His cousins (who he was staying with in Miami) kept begging him not to go, that she's not right and he deserves better, but again he didn't care.. she was his world! As he drove to Ga, he went to his ex house, really excited that everything was going to be alright.

His life was going to start to change and he was soon going to be happy. As he got to the place where his ex was, she quickly turned him down and said she didn't love him, and that she never wanted him to come here. She told him many things that basically killed him. He quickly left back to Florida. On his way there he stoped at a hotel to "spend" the night. He never called his cousins to tell them that and that's rarely him. The next day his cousin was comming back from paying her car insurance and she sees like about 6 police cars at her house. She then finds out that they found her cousin dead at the hotel and he had commited suicide.

As i got home from school, i didn't know anything that accured. It was a regular day. I was getting ready to go to church. My mother comes in and tells me to go with her to do a couple of things. My mother had a worry look on her face, and i asked her what was wrong. She said i have some bad news. "You know Guajiro? Well....he killed himself..."

Silence arrose.....

and i broke down to the floor and cried my eyes out. I couldn't believe that he did that. I didn't even get to say Goodbye...Never got to say goodbye....

This really hurt me.....

many questions came to my mind....

What was he thinking? Why did he do it? How hurt was he really?

Now my question is to any of the people that read this,

What do you guys think about this situation?

If there was no tomorrow, or if tomorrow never came or if u never got to say how you really felt about the person or if you had just 5 minutes to live, what would you do at that point and what would you say?

Thanks!