taking a break from geometry. forgot lunch money. wishing for better weather. hoping for time travel. working towards wellness. falling into nothing. using half sentences. communication seems pointless.
try: fail. succeed. whatever. it will still fall upon deaf ears. no one wants to listen when all that they have to say is regurgitated bullshit from somewhere else.
be creative, mine heathens, strike a pose for a non-existent camera. tell a joke to rock, you'll see it laugh. stub your toes and hop around on one foot. look two feet to your left. is it not beautiful. (currently i am of the opinion of no, for reasons now listed. A: there happens to be a guy two feet to my left. B. i am not gay. C. i am in a computer lab, and all the white noise makes me want to blow my brains out or get my work done quickly. D. all of the above. F. i still don't know why coulomb's law works completely... you bastard, coulomb. great you found out that opposites attract. wonderful. did you ever think that opposites only attract when surrounded by likeness???? probably not.)
now time for introspective haiku.!!!!!!
walking down the path
i found nothing there anyway.
on the way back, yes
maybe i'll just go sand the rest of the rest of the boat that i need to paint. i'll be back on later though. hope you guys aren't nice. it gives me something to do in this small town, aside from becoming an alcoholic or druggie...
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
it sounds like you have an identity crisis that you see, we rarely see flaws in other people that do not exist in ourselves, I call people prideful when I'm insecure about my humility, so I think maybe the fact that you criticize others for being in boxes and mainstream is just a sign that you yourself feel like you're in the box and unable to express yourself in a unique way to find more individuality.
just a shot in the dark tho.
while it may be part of the problem, i think i just need a girlfriend. someone to dote upon and spend my precious time with, until then, i will be here blogging in my off time.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
well if you're looking for a girlfriend maybe you put an extra wing or two in your igloo. but really the best thing you could do is become the person you want to hook up with, if you're looking for someone who's hot, smart, funny, and fun to be around, just become those things and you'll meet that person. I wish you luck ,is it true that if you marry a native Alaskan tribeswomen you can kill whales?
and i am most of those things, or at least people say such, i know that a person cannot be an expert on their personage. the main problem here is everyone like that is already taken, or they are into less legal things, i.e. drugs and alcohol. those thing i save for special occasions, and those are few and far between. i guess i will just continue being celibate. i am fine with either way, it is just nice to be able to share your inner thoughts with someone, and also a bed.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
that is so true, I'm a big believer that a man without a women is nothing, because like I lived in the Dominican Republic for a couple years and I learned more about America by living outside there then I did my entire life here, I learned Spanish and so I found out more about English by learning Spanish then all my English classes.
I just feel like if you want to truly know yourself, getting to know someone you love helps you see who you are and you grow together, its like a ying is nothing without its yang
oh i have had my fair share of unworkable relationships. i have thought about them a lot. i think i know what went wrong. usually with young love, people tend to get burnt out on each other. or at least that is what happened with me.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
Opposites attract, but I've rarely seen two people who are totally opposite stay together. I think you need a perfect balance. Enough in common to be friends. Enough diversity between you to be lovers. Thats how I've always looked at it anyway.
Anyhow, us girls aren't the greatest anyways, so you're not missing much when we're this young. Then again, the love of your life could be waiting outside in the snow, taking a picture of the laughing rock.
the object here is not to pick a battle so big you can't complete it, the object is to pick a battle really small, that it almost seemed like nothing to overcome it, but in turn this battle actually turns out to be bigger, and deeper, than the first battle
but at the same time i am not really looking for a girlfriend, i think you ladies have a knack for sensing desperation. maybe i'll find her or she will find me. who know. only time will tell.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes
Maybe you should quit looking. That always does the trick.
Embrace your singledom. Live it up.
F*** Religion. Read more here:
http://www.progressiveu.org/020528-f-religion
that is pretty much what i have been doing. for the past few months actually. i can tough it out though. living in a small town, you kind of have to look a little bit otherwise all the good prospects get taken. rather quickly actually, but summer is pretty much here so i am just going to let the good times roll.
Yours truly,
.demosthenes