It's been a little over a year since you've passed away, but not a day goes by that I don't miss you. I still find myself sitting in my room listening to music and discovering that for some reason, the song that I'm listening to somehow reminds me of you.
I know it's stupid to be mourning your death, cause I know that you are finally in a better place and you aren't sick anymore, but I guess I'm just selfish. I know that you're in Heaven and that you're up there with my brother Angel, but I was only 15 when you died, I wasn't supposed to lose you that early. Out of all my family members, you seemed to understand me the most, better than my mother and father even did.
I know that as long as I do what I'm supposed to do and stay out of trouble, I'll get to see you again in Heaven, but life's just getting so difficult and so troubling lately, I'm not sure I know what to do anymore. So for now, all I can do is pray & talk to you in my dreams and hope that you give me some kind of sign on what to do with my life.
"Bury me smilin'
with G's in my pocket
have a party at my funeral
let every rapper rock it
let tha hoes that I usta know
from way before
kiss me from my head to my toe
give me a paper and a pen
so I can write about my life of sin
a couple bottles of Gin
incase I don't get in
tell all my people i'm a Ridah
nobody cries when we die
we outlaws
let me ride
until I get free
I live my life in tha fast lane
got police chasen me
to my niggas from old blocks
from old crews
niggas that guided me through
back in tha old school
pour out some liquor
have a toast for tha homies
see we both gotta die
but ya chose to go before me
and brothas miss ya while your gone
you left your nigga on his own
how long we mourn
life goes on..."
-Tupac Shakur
that's sad and I know that losing someone you care about is hard...last year I lost two really good friends within two weeks of each other...one I had know for three years and the other since kindergarten...they both suddenly died of mysterious diseases...and I know I wish I could've done more to be closer to them
i know what you mean, my uncle tom died in december & then two months later, his wife, my aunt grace, died as well. even though their deaths' weren't as close together as your friends' deaths, the pain is still there.
"everything i'm not made me everything i am"
-kanye west
This was a totally different blog than I expected based on the title. I expected it to be about Uncle Tom's Cabin, so this was a little bit of a shock. I am sorry for your loss and grief.
I am very sorry about your loss. I understand what it is like to lose someone who is close to you. I lost my mother and cousin and numerous other people. It really does suck to lose someone who understands you and is so close to you. I lost my mom in 2006 and the pain is still there. But stay strong and keep moving ahead because that is what your uncle would want.
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