Why Me?

Why me? Why am I still alive? Not that I want to be dead. But it baffles me how every day you hear about people getting killed in horrible car accidents and other such tragedies. What about the one who happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. Is it just that? Being unlucky? That seems too simple. How is one life spared over another? There are such tragic events that could happen to ANYONE, yet it happens to that ONE person. Everyday there is another person killed. I know I’m not the only one, so who says that one life is to be spared over the others? Is that person MEANT to leave at that time in that way? Are we all going to die at God’s opportune moment? Is it all up to Him or do we have control, until our age catches up with up? I guess this is up to personal interpretation on beliefs. Is it more random then planned. Am I supposed to die at a certain time, place and way? Is life set at a random draw of the card? For example, in the game Clue, it all depends who gets drawn to be the victim. Does it go the same way for life? Is there a reason to why one CHILD or PERSON lives over another?

In the columbine tragedy, why did THAT school have the shooters? Again it could have been ANY school, was it meant to be that way? Is death put upon us to change our lives? There is death EVERYDAY, yet it only touches some of us. Death makes us think about life, and all that we have accomplished, and allows us to change the negative parts in our life. Like the things we take for granted, or brings about realization to what we are meant to achieve. Death brings sadness and renewal. Death is such a mysterious thing, as is life. Life is the thing we can experience and KNOW best. After a person passes, they can’t come back to tell us what happens after life which frightens me. I don’t know how it is decided that one life is spared over another, how can two different lives be compared? I’m just speculating here, trying to get a feel on how I grasp this strange concept.

I am eternally grateful to my life and appreciate every moment of it. I’m blessed that it hasn’t been taken early from me. My heart goes out to all of those who have lost someone dear to them, before their time had come. Life is such an amazing thing that should never be taken for granted. I’m looking forward to the new challenges that come to face me, and to see how I handle them.